Sara. We just go in circles..

Okay, I'm working on a new fanfic, this is chapter one. Let me know what you think!! COMMENT!

 

I hopped quickly off the train in New York; this was the only state I hadn't been to yet. But I had to find Josh, even though he didn't know it, and probably wouldn't believe it, he was the love of my life.

 

 

 

I still remember the day he ran off. I don't think I'll ever forget it.

 

 [FLASHBACK]

 

"Josh!" I yelled seeing the back of his head. "Hi!"

"Hey Hayley!" he answered, pulling me into a bear hug. I didn't think he was ever going to let go. To be honest, with what I had to tell him I didn't want him to.

 

Well he did, eventually and he stared into my eyes, realising there was something not quite right in them.

"Hayley," he began cautiously, "Is everything okay?"

"Err.. No. I need to tell you something. Can we sit?"

"Sure" he said, his voice uneasy.

 

"I led him over to the large wooden bench and began,

"Josh, I-I-I think we should break up." That's when the tears started, mine and Josh's "I don't think we should continue to date, it's breaking up the band. We've been through way to much with the guys to put ourselves before them. I truly am sorry. I love you Josh.

"Hayley. Why?" He said, still not quite grasping it.

"I just told you. For the good of the band."

 

"Okay, well then. I guess I'll just break the band up. I'm leaving. You'll never ever see me again. I hope you're happy."

 

"Josh no!" I screamed, tears streaming down my face and dropping to the floor.

 

[END OF FLASHBACK]

 

I could feel the tears forming behind my eyelids just thinking of it. That was a year ago, I'd been looking for him since the day after that happened, I told the guys, and they told me I would never find him and that it was pointless, but I had to try. I'd tried everywhere; New York was my last affordable hope. I couldn't just hop on a flight to London or jet off to Paris, yeah I was in a band and all, but I didn't have that kind of money. I trawled on down the street, looking all around me to see if he was near, I was dead sure that I saw him and I started to run, Then the guy I thought was Josh turned round, nothing but a mere stranger.

 

I broke down crying and had to use the wall for support. I wasn't expecting the wall to wrap arms around me. I looked up, sure enough, it was a friend. I saw Jeremy, it had been a while.

 
"JERMS!" I yelled at him, scaring him half to death.

 

"Hey Hayley."

 

I hugged him tighter, happy to see a familiar face.

"So how you been?" he asked.

 

"Meh. Terrible. You?"

"Not too bad actually." He answered. "What's up, still looking?"

 

"Yeah.." I said as the tears started to flow harder.

 

"Aww Hayles, come here," he whispered, pulling me closer and kissing the top of my head. "I'm sure you'll find him, you of all people would be able too." I smiled as his pessimism. That wasn't what was going on in my mind. I was failing. I was onto my last resort. NEW FRIGGIN YORK. Josh hated New York. But all the more reason for him to be here. It could take a while. New York was a big place.

 

"So what're you doing here?" I inquired.

 

"I live here now. I have done for the past half a year."

"Oh Cool, New York New York!"

 

"The place of dreams!" He said with a smile, Jeremy always knew how to cheer me up. "You need a place to stay?" He asked.

 

"Yeah, if you're up for it." I said. "You think you can handle me?" I giggled.

 

"Hayles, it wouldn't be the first time, remember?" he chuckled at me.

 

"Yeah I know."

 

"Late nights with Cap'n Crunch and Spongebob here I come. Yippee!"

 

So it was settled, I had a place to say, and I WOULD find Josh here. I'd go out looking everyday. He meant that much to me.